Day 41: Wed & Thursday & This morning

Hello Internet World I hope everyone is having a good morning so far. That is if your even awake its 5:31am . I normally wouldn't be up at this time no lie. I would be dreaming away in lala land. I would be still recovering from my late workout granted it was recovery but that's a lie. My thighs beg to differ the inside of them! ahhhhhh but even so I again wish I WAS ASLEEP!!! So the reason I am not asleep is my dog her tummy I knew she was going to be sick :( after my workout yesterday I had the worst sweet tooth and because I know myself If I don't have something in the house I will go out and get it and I tend to binge. I wont eat sweets for few weeks then load up in one day then go with out then binge lol. it sucks but that's my deal and well if your a woman follow my binge blog days and its usually when Aunt Flow comes to visit yes this sucks ass That not only is my dog sick from low fat vanilla ice cream that fell on the floor and I was trying to clean up but have you ever seen a animal experience the taste of vanilla my dog was like on crack It was more pulling her out of the kitchen to get to the crate then clean otherwise she was cleaning it all up herself and super quick to. So I get her up clean eat the little bit I had left and finish downing my water. I am still on the lipo 6 and I tell you what I am almost done with this bottle and almost done with my insanity can you believe it??? OMG!!!!
well I want to show you all some pics this is now and then and trust me I can see the improvements as well I know the pictures show some but not the whole effect :)But for the record as of yesterday I have lost total of 25 pounds and I am so proud and cant wait to keep going I really want to see what my tummy area can look like and see if I can magically for the first time in my life wear size 4-5 I mean that would be cool but that will be next year by the end of this year I want to be a 7-8 I am in a 10 now from a size 14-16.
OK so lets also go back to wed I didn't blog that day either I don't know why sometimes I cant wait to get on here and write others I just want sleep. But anyways pure cardio in phase 1 pretty tough keeps you moving and its like 15 mins of crazyness, So the Max Cardio Conditioning holy moly you should have seen me after every damn move I was waiting for a water break That I swear never came I had to take breaks oh lord thank god I can get away with the excuse its my first time ever doing that dvd because it kicked my ass and I tell you no wonder this system works it has to literally burn and blast my fat! I will say this also I have burned total of 11 pounds of fat so far in my 40 days I do believe this program with have me down full 20 pounds once I am done. I am so happy I have been changing my life! well today we start the madness all over. I am going to max interval circuit and I am also so excite tomorrow I leave for vacation and Yay! well going to lay here watch law and order wishing I was asleep but my day started shitty literally my dog was sick in her crate thank god I didn't have to clean carpets and things I love my German shepherd she will get sick in her crate before my carpet that's loyalty for you! I also am going to drink my like 3rd cup of coffee since 4:30 am yay me. OK I will try to post once more before vaca but no guarantee. I hope everyone has a great Friday a safe weekend and take care!

Day 38: Just Press Play!

Hello Internet World,
I hope you have had a great day! Its Tuesday I am so excited just a few hours away from closing my eyes going to sleep and waking up to the half way mark the Hump Day the middle of the week the point where you see Friday and sat so clear so close. Vacation is on the brain but shaun t was working my body! Yes I DID IT!!! I made it through today my second workout in the max series and wow thank god I only have 26 more days of this torture and your might be thinking hey that's a few extra days but I added a few cause I think I might miss a few on vacation I am going to try not to but drinking and tanning and gambling just might not push me to click the mouse on the computer and also watch with no music and look like a dufas on the gym floor cause if you have ever been on a cruise the bedrooms/cabins are like a small pack of gum you can barely change your clothes with out hitting a night stand or corner of a shelf or hit your head on a tv lets along start with kicking and doing mummy walks. so I plan on trying to wake up early and or sometime when a whole lot of people are not in the gym going in there watching and doing some insanity. Who knows I might get someone to jump in lol I am a leader lol.
well not much to say other then I wasn't really feeling working out today but just press play even when you don't want to after doing 10 mins your body will change its mind the endorphins start pumping and the blood moving though your veins it changes your whole attitude. So even if you don't want to just try. I also am praying to see some serious results soon because this phase 2 its not only hard its long and a pain in the ass. yes I love it / hate it I cant wait to be skinny and start working out for like 30 mins to maintain. yes I hate this lifestyle bs crap people push you and I know if We could look this good but just hanging out drinking and living it up We would all do the have fun workout. But we cant so I will keep working out trying to get that sexy body I feel it coming soon. and cant wait to weigh in on saturday to see what the total weight loss was before my cruise wish I would have had a full 60 days but anyways now I am just rambling. lol
Oh also when you dont want to work out bribe yourself! it works I went today and bought the rest of my a a a alchol for the booze and cruise and I saw the bread and company and its not really so much of a treat as the Their Fruit tea I LOVE THAT STUFF YUMYUMYUM! So I buy my over priced Delicious salad and large fruit tea I put that in the fridge I didnt eat it till after I worked out I told myself right when I got home get going I wanted to grub on this mhmmmmm. ok good night everyone lol I am going to watch some law and order and play xbox and go to bed!

Day 37 :OMG to the Max!!

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I want to start tonight off by just saying insanity is no joke! If you think the first 30 days were hard just wait. Now with that being said I also want to say if you have done p90x you might agree or disagree but p90x has nothing on insanity. I never once thought that p90x was as hard as what I did today or even the last 30 something days and well I am not looking forward to tomorrow. That shit was bananas!!! You only get really 13 mins maybe of stretching and that total video so for the rest of the 48 mins your going super hard with your few 30 second breaks that in this video today was really not enough. I mean wow my heart rate monitor even spelled out wtf lol joking but still in 59mins and 49 sec I burned 1074 calories yes I know I did at least 900 calories I was wearing on my shirt it was soaking wet like nasty eww yuck soaking wet I have never burned calories like that and it make plyometrics x look like a damn cake walk yes like as simple as oe step in front of the other. I am not lying it was crazy. I have some video footage I just have to play with it to try to get it on the blog I have only been able to get one video on here. it always kicks it back saying failed to upload. but will keep trying.
Ok so second thing You will have to have arecovery drink dude I felt like I was literally about to die after the workout thank god my good friend alicia gave me a few samples of p90x recovery dtink I had 1 left and if there was a time to use it wow it was today I felt drained and yet needed something after the workout water was just not enough and I tell you I really didnt think the recovery drink was that tasty till today when it was exactly what I needed! it queched my body's thirst for energy sugar protein everything I need ect! I so need to invest in some recovery formula.
other then that I am going to relax and before bed aim to try to do a ab ripper x I only have 5 days and still not the abs I am dreaming of! But anyways have a great night everyone and Will be back tomorrow with max plyo ahhhhhhh!!!!!

it like Day 32-33-34: RECOVERY WEEK~

Hello Internet World,
I hope everyone has had a awesome week so far! I am super excited yet still bummed. 1rst vacation is in 9 days whohoo yay I cant wait I am so ready to leave this land and put my boat legs on! yes the walbbaling I will be doing from being drunk and the boat moving and oh the gambling I will do. ask anyone who has gone on a cruise with me you find my ass at the blackjack table drunk half the time losing but I don't give what!!! lol I LOVE IT the people you meet when you lose and the people you meet when your winning and the dealers who I always sit at the hot guys table or the banging chic cause either way I get eye candy lol why hot guys go sit with hot chic dealers and I well if I have a hot dealer guy well Eye candy straight ahead lol. plus I also cant wait to be drunk yes drunk and this year we are taking the beer pong float. During the summer one of my neighbors she was so cool she brought this float and her and her awesome roommate we would play and get hammered at the pool with the amazing floating beer pong table that you can take anywhere my plan is not only late night after party in Melissa's room but shit when I am at the grand caymans I am so taking this to the beach I will never travel with out it!

But lets go back to basics


A. I have been eating ok other the last week when company game in town and I ate like every carb on the planet I have done very well this week.
B. I have been doing cardio core and balance and wow I love it but hate this one!
It is easy yet hard slow but fast its recovery and doesn't really feel like recovery but I have noticed every time I do this workout 3 days so far my calories burned have decreased so I am slowly either recovering or its not taking as much energy with each day. 724 mon , 701 tues, 668 wed, so I will tell you what today's calories burned in tomorrows blog.
C. I have weighed myself and as I wish I could say I am so close I am not yet I have lost weight I am at 173 which is so far means I have not made my goal at least to be 20lbs lighter before cruise and I doubt I will lose it in 10 days. But even so I will say this I am very proud to even lose 10 and if I can just maybe drop a few extra pounds like say 3 I would still be very happy. I have worked very hard and I can see a huge difference in not just my body but my attitude. and I love every sweat drenching workout and every morning when I wake up I enjoy looking in the mirror looking for the changes.

So next topic....
MAX WORKOUTS
Not including today I have 3 workouts till I start phase 2 which is Max interval and Max plyo and max cardio conditioning.
I am so scared I wont lie day 1 I remember being like Tony you Fucker You lied After doing plyometric x for 160 days I thought I was getting in shape hell no!!!
I remember doing the first workout for insanity and feeling like I was going to die and realize that I was not in shape not even close until I can jump up and down with shaun and That group you are no where in shape. My lungs were not as strong I feel like my heart has even got stronger too does that even make since. I have been building serious endurance I also now can do plyo x like its a cake walk!
So I watched last night max plyo and I think I am going to die again it looks so freaking hard it is not funny some of the new moves and I almost cant imagine my heart being at 90% for 41 mins out of 55. and at the same time I am super excited. well I hope everyone has a great day! I am about to go do some work and then work out.
I hope this pushes you to push play I haven't made my goal yet and I still and super syked and cant wait to keep going see day 60!!!

Day 31: Cant Nobody slow me down oh no I got to keep on Moving!

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I hope everyone has had a great weekend. Yes it is Sunday! The high is 81 it is amazing outside and after doing more this weekend then normal exploring Nashville, going to the different malls, checking out the restaurants and talking a stroll down Broadway and see opryland. I wish I could say I was out partyin and all but I wasn't.
but so I didn't eat well No lie between loveless biscuits which are around here famous. its been a tourist attraction for over 50 years here in Nashville. So lets see after eating that stuff though we had to walk through green hills walk off the good bacon and eggs and biscuits that we stuffed in our face and lets see after that we kinda just chilled I mean we did wait over a hour to eat breakfast and by the time we got done it was like 2 so I think we got home from green hills around 5pm. and so we got lazy but doesn't stop me I push myself and well we go back out and decide to go grocery shopping for me to make dinner and so I make a mean salad it was awesome along with baked chicken fresh garden beans that had olive oil and garlic and some wild rice yum yum! I let it digest and leave it at that after about a hour and half go by I tell me friend to sit back and relax I need 40 mins to dedicate to a man who is not trying to hurt me but make me better and I do some plyo btw this is just my Friday! Lol so I get through it thank god and Trust me I felt like I was about to die. I felt on that night a cold starting to come my sister was sick this past week and I wanted to kill her I felt it. Well here it becomes Saturday. Yay another day to explore well first off another day of un healhty eating we start off with breakfast at shoneys yea I KNOW not even close to Healthy but I did eat eggs bacon a biscuit and fruit no sweet junk. I did ok and I am so proud of myself it has been over 90 days since I had coke cola or any soda! well I really didn't have a snack or anything cause I wasn't hungry all day between resting and then heading to cool springs galleria mall we hung out . Love Relaxing but if I would have know what I was going to have dinner I would have worked out instead of laying around. But anyways we go to mall shop I get a lovely little massage which was so nice my back then tension I felt so good after and then My weakness he said Carrabas for dinner and oh no I lose it the temptation wins their bread the herbs the luna carraba if you haven't worked there you might not know what that is but if you have worked there its a mix or the messaluna and the pasta carrabas the chicken breast peas mushrooms and ravioli omg well lets just say after dinner I was motivated to workout No Matter What!! I probably ate 1000 calories easy. easy
so I get home and again the torture of watching me workout no one joins in. But I don't give what what I want a nice body so I bust a move with pure cardio. Yea no lie I cant believe with company in town again I have managed to push my self I have not let no one slow me down unless it was myself. so no way to be upset or have any excuse or no one to blame but myself if I don't get the results I want.
So Anyways After all that I wont lie its been up and down the weather here in Nashville so I am of course getting sick which thank god I am at least getting sick 2 weeks before my cruise instead of my cruise. haha beat that mother nature I am not going to have a head cold in paradise damn it lol. well pretty much other then read this book that is going to help change my life.




I am going to rest and enjoy my Sunday. have a great day yall!!

Day 29: Busy Busy Now its the weekend

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Well its Friday and I am just again falling behind I had this down where I was writing it on the day it was for. Now I am a day late it seems and have been for awhile. So this is for Yesterday Thursday the 14th. Well it started off good. Kinda sucked though lilly was sick I am praying she doesn't get me sick I am still trying to be strong lol. So anyways I wake up make some coffee take my pill its about 8am had trouble sleeping wed night. So once again I am being so bad to my body I may drink a coffee and bottle of water but as far as food. NOTHING! I am so bad about eating it is so hard for me. I guess the life of a writer your more worried about pleasing everyone and coming up with something that is the next big thing I cant stop thinking about it. I have been writing a lot and I think that is why I am having a hard time sleeping as well trying to make it is the hardest thing I feel like the weight of the world on my shoulders, I seem to eat breath sleep and feel that I have a number 1 in me it needs to come out. I am also trying to force my body to hurry up I want to be able to look the way a public figure should. I DON'T EVER EXPECT to be a stick thin girl I AM NOT A SUPERMODEL I AM A SINGER SONGWRITER LOL.
But I still have to love myself enough to be able to wear things. My best friend asked me the other day Melissa what happen to music video you were making???
I wanted to cry when I had to not say how I really felt but that I got to fat to make a video I was embarrassed that being alone and told no no no from record labels and producers and vp and writers telling me Sorry not there yet. and losing my number one fan to cancer because the VA thought a cancer test was just a bit expensive errrrrr. I anyways start thinking again I have to eat I am not going to lose if I burn burn burn calories and not add any fuel or help my body take good things in to create energy and burn fat.
So I still screw up after all that I go in the kitchen and just make a shakeology shake its is like 11am I drink that nasty shit and keep writing. yes I say nasty ewww it taste like apples cinnamint and ass uh. but I again my method hold my breath chug it like a beer bong lol and it is so nasty. but then I get my energy in then I take off and go run my errands for the day and do some work
So lets see I get home its afternoon I had to have my landlord come over fix some shit lol I hate that about having a private landlord but hey it life what can you do I guess in a way its better then owning right now and something breaking and not having enough to fix it or worst spending my music money on a water heater or something crazy like that. So waste time listening to him and then After I had to get motivated I had company coming into town this weekend so I had to hurry up get some food in and get ready to work out so I did just that.
3:50 Eat tuna and double fiber bread and kettle cook chips I am pretty plain and eat a lot of things over and over and over. so you know the deal let it digest and then talk to lilly I get unmotivated dwhen she gets home so we start talking and hanging out and watching tv. and again nothing until I get the text on the way I was like crap time to workout and some how I was already hungry again shit. I dont even care I motivate and press play instead of cardio recovery I do the cardio restiance again I need the most calories burn I almost want to skip the r4ecovery week or find a way to shorten I am not making it I have 16 days and not enough time. I really need to bust butt I have decided I am going to take the program with me and if I have to I will work out a min of 3 out of 7 days. That's not unfair to myself. I will also have the max ones it will be my second week. who knows maybe I can find some cruisers to do it with me haha. I was thinking go to the gym say 7 in the morning no one is in the Arabic's area play it on the lap top and see who follows. I am a leader if you don't know me I am I work hard for what I want. If I want something I get it. That's me. So It like 8 15 I am finally done with working out and I go shower and get ready I know I should have ate something but I didn't. here it2 1/2 laters I am finally getting to eat and when I do it was not healthy it was stuffed crust pizza oh no!
Granted it did taste amazing I shouldn't have had that and worst no veggies nothing shit just carbs and lots of it I try to take it easy have 2 small pieces but I still felt guilty.
Other then that hung out for a bit drank some water which I also failed on I did not even get close to a gallon I was off by like maybe 3 water bottles which is 16.5x3.
see not good.
Well I hope I do better today but will be hard with company here but am going to try. I hope everyone has a awesome and blessed day.

Day 28 :Just Another day of this Insanity!

Well Hello Internet World,
Today Has been a good day even though it was a rainy cloudy day with a mix of sunshine. So lets see I am kinda don't know what to really write yesterday had a great workout today was dragging butt. But by the time I write this I will be motivated enough to take a break do cardio Resistance and I am going to try to aim for ab ripper x but I am no lie super tired. Went to bed last night with a lot on my mind it made me sleep bad. So anyways I wake up this morning
7:30 am made a cup of coffee but wasn't meant for me to drink it the dog was determined to trip me up at that point I was like water and lipo 6 and acai berry cleanse here is a pic if you want to try it I have done well about 3 lbs in what 3-4 days. so that's cool.


well from there got busy my sister is sick so I was trying to get out of the house but no lie I have spent some time in my bathroom with that flush so I finally get to the bank cause the other day the atm ate my debit card. damn machines
So no breakfast I do really bad I do grab a protein shake while IMO on the road. so a muscle milk helps curb my hunger. That was sometime around 12:30 and I swear I am not being good to myself I think its like 3:15 when I get my first meal in that's was a tuna sandwich on double fiber natures own bread. and some kettle cooked jalapenos flavored chips mhmm yummy.
that rocks well from there I am lazy maybe because lack of sleep or lack of food cause I was starving what seemed 30 mins later after I ate. so I want to say it was
4pm I just took a nap and relaxed waked up at 6:30 or around there and started cooking I wanted to work out I just didn't have it in me yet not enough energy. And through out this day I forgot to take my second set of lipo 6 tisk tisk . It doesn't work if I don't take it right. I have to keep telling myself that.
8:35 pm So tonight for dinner is a repeat of the other night nothing new just rosemary garlic baked chicken with red potato's and apargus and a slice of hearty whole grain petite loaf and just a spoon of black beans but in reality was to full never got to it I wasted it :( but anyways lets see I am right now digesting my food I really need to get mentally prepared I have to workout and I am still tired I don't sleep so good I had to pee a whole lot so I feel like I never get to that nice deep sleep I used to get. well now that im pumped sweaty I am drinking my water catching my breath good night yall! dream sweet

Day 25: Falling love with Fall!!

Hello Internet World,
I hope everyone had a amazing Sunday! I wont lie I love love love the weekend. Not that I did a whole lot other the work, write and shop. And Not even so much buy but window shop. So Lets Go through the weekend shall we. First off in Nashville Tn the weather this weekend was just down right amazing! It was not only beautiful. Hot at some point breezy at others and guess what NO RAIN!!!! yay!!! So you know me I went out and played in the sunshine. I not only Managed to wash my car and spend a hour detailing it. But the dog enjoyed some fresh air and I went to mall with my sister which if you actually know me the only reason why I am semi good with money is cause unlike most girls I don't care to go to a mall. Its a over crowded venue with expensive stores that carry things you cant afford and dream of having in my case and if you know of Green Hills Mall Most of the stuff I cant afford but dream of like the 149.99 pumps red croc design omg and the bebe dresses and the run tones which I will save up for in the next month or two it will be my Christmas to myself. I just hate spending over 100 bucks on shoes and I still have my easy tones lol well listen to me ramble lol. But anyways enjoyed the trip though good quality time with my sister and the weather for the drive with the sun roof open and the windows down awesome . Good Times.
But this weekend I did go to bed super late so I slept in both sat and sun till about 8:30 am. woke up coffee and diet pills . I ate a muffin but I tell I seriously feel like I have to force it down my throat I was so not hungry and other then that. I just went to the gas station bought a newspaper cut my coupons like I do every Sunday didn't really do much and def didn't want to work out yet cause I worked out late last night and not only did I do my plyometric circuit I also did the ab ripper x dvd right before bed so I just wanted to be lazy. So anyways I saw these 2 coupons for a total of 7 dollars off cosmetics and I tell you what the rite aid by my house had a uch of crap 75% off and guess what that cover girl age defying crap which is like 14.99 and stuff yes I got it for like 2 dollars haha my sister watched my walk out with a total of 40 dollars worth of makeup for a whopping 7 bucks lol. yes loreal and olay crap I don't wear a whole lot of make up but hey nice to have for cheap and I racked up to for my sister and my best friend lol. shit saved her 20 what normally cost her prolly 13- 14 bucks I got for 3.50 a piece steals lol and tj max I love there too. So I go there cause I love fall I really do but that means time to trade in the flip flops for slippers lol cause its been chilly and in the am and my litte toes are cold and it also doesn't fit sweat pants hoodie and flip flops so anyways by this point its mid afternoon my sister and I eat some shrimp stir fry . and by the way when I say mid afternoon Its like 2:30 so I did horrible eating. I literally am not hungry and not grumpy or anything so I just don't get how come the weight hasn't just fallin off but anyways my friend Kevin stops by and he was my spinning my buddy we would go push through a hour of torture on the bike where when I was done I was drenched I had to do p90x before spinning otherwise I would off tony lol. but anyways I put on insanity we watched it together , then watch some results on youtube pumped each other up and since he will be soon getting ready for his wedding he wants to look his best. See ladies its not just us who fret about how they look on that day he said I want to look hot on that day he is inspired by David beckem which no lie I must say to HOT. So he wants that athlete body and so he leaves here and he decided he wants to dig deep so he goes on a mission for insanity haha I swear I should be a coach lol. but again no lie I am lazy when he leaves and lilly leaves for work I am all alone so its me the couch and the tv
So I take a a nap wake up talk to my friend/ neighbor josh for a bit who I have to bitch at him he has been lazy he was my walking buddy who doesn't walk no more!!!
but then as I wait for my hungry bone to start itching I type up the blog for the night tonight I am going to just go cook the new food for the evening. Which is ACORN SQUASH. I wanted to also this year open my eyes to healthy food and talk about actually completing a goal. I have def tryed a whole variety of different foods this year and loved most of them. grated most were veggies but who knew squash,zuchinin,and lord knows they are a million different types of squash I have tryed 3 so far and each one was great. So I bake the acorn squash but most of the recipes require brown sugar and shit and I really didn't want to add a unch of stuff.
My recipe and it tasted amazing!!
1 acorn squash( each acorn squash feeds 2 people)
gut it take the seeds out and scrape it
then take a knife slice slits in
add a teas spoon butter and just place in middle
now instead of brown sugar I grab one single pack of splenda. I always have
a bunch from the gas station and like subways when ever I grab a unsweet tea or coffee. make a habit to keep them why waste it and it great I always know how much I use.
and a pinch of salt
Now I hear that splenda has brown sugar if thats true you might want to try it
I didn't have it so I just use whats in the pantry.Be creative.
bake for 1 hour it will be tender soft and smell like a sweet potato all in all
I swear that when I tasted it was not much different. it was very good though I was shocked. yummy

So I relax I digest and I mentally prepare myself for cardio recovery again its suppose to be a off day but I don't really have time for days off with only 3 weeks left. So I workout finish drinking the rest of my gallon of water and the shower and go to bed. Have a Great week everyone!!

Day 23:Mirror Mirror on the Wall

Hello Internet World,
Well lets start with it is suppose to be Friday's blog. So anyways I want to start off with I have been doing this program for a long time not insanity so much. but did 180 days of p90x and well let me tell you this when I moved here last year I was in pretty decent shape not fat but not small just average. I was unhealthy but I still at least had somewhat of a body. Well Have you ever bought a pair jeans only to start not fitting them in like 2 weeks I did. I bought these 75.00 jeans and I had moved here and didn't really know a whole lot of people well I remember being lie shit I need to lose 5 lbs to 4 months later being like omg I cant even get them around my ass. When I started p90x I was in about a 16 pants 14-16 depends on the brands. well now I was officially in a 10 and that's no muffin top no thing that is pure sexy lol. I have to say when I put the jeans on and they slipped on fit no fat coming off the top.The satisfaction I got the energy that starting forming from my toes to my nose I started crazy Jumping around I know you don't get it but these jeans are tight denim they have very litte stretch if any. So get ready for me size 9 I am on the way. and by the way my goal was 10 now its 7-8 I cant stop digging deeper!!

So wake up 7:00 started my day lipo 6 and again acai berry cleanse flush. Since no lie other then tasting like shit and I mean don't get me wrong it does take the hunger away and energy maybe I might have got a boost a few times. But I think that its a bit over priced and doesn't really help my digestive system or as I had read I thought it would e something kinda like a drink colon cleanser I wanted to lose the waste drink healthy and remember I didn't lose weight when I did the cleanse not really. This stuff for 15 bucks I feel it working for sure it adds up to 2x a day bowl movements lol and sorry about the shit talk but if your like me you will take any way you can to lose a inch of fat or waste or whatever has your tummy feeling that bloated feeling. I work out I eat pretty good and still feel bloated sometimes so try it cant hurt def do not look bloated any more.So its like
8:45 am So I decide to eat a muffin I made which I LOVE, and its 150 calories.
I also get on this computer started working. and again get away get moving had to go run errands and put on my jeans and wow I was happy as hell. I took a picture yay baby I was so exited that motivated me that an my girl Alicia who gave me my pep talk for New Years. I love that girl she has been a true friend and stuck with me with this p90x stuff. and trust me its hard. I know we get annoying trying to be fit and healthy and we sometimes push it on others an we don't mean to. We just are going through changes and having a goal to be healthy fit and sexy that's a great goal treat your body like a temple, so after her comments and blog and my 15 mins dancing around being like hell yeah! I take it off and switch to focused mode and do some insanity cardio resistance I swear I feel like the 3 dvds just repeat thank god I add p90x. But I get it done and again if your trying to shed fat insanity is the way to go if your looking to build muscle go to p90x. I WANT BOTH~
So after my workout I cook a great breakfast. 3 egg whites another muffin and string cheese. anyways its about 12 almost I know where did time fly lol
SO After workout get back to what I was doing and that is a shower then dress and get on with the day meetings and nothing fun. So ......






I come home eat a stoffer lasagna for 350 calories that was my lunch and dinner my snack was some grapes and pistachios I did shitty. I hate having no life. I cant wait 22 days I will have a life for 1 week on vacation living it up black jack tables and slots with comedy shows and clubs and tons and tons of booze what ts a cruise without tons of booze! So I better keep pushing losing cause I am gonna gain weight in a week I know it even if I do bust my ass and workout on the ship!

Well have a great Saturdays everyone I am going to go wash my car and then go to the park it is so nice outside!!!

Day 21: Trying New things

Hello Internet World,
Hope everyone has had a great day its Wed.A blessing to be alive and be healthy and fit and enjoy the beautiful day. Well I am going to write this kind old fashion way when I first started this blog.I feel it gives you a bit of times and it helps me eat better. Granted I kinda ate better then I have but you know its really hard to eat a whole lot.
8:30 am I woke up that is late for me I just couldn't get motivated though and also had a late workout last night. So anyways Instead of Green tea I drink some Coffee.
Now I add crap so I use fat free creamer french vanilla mmm yummy with 1 splenda and a splash of skim milk. and I take my 2 lipo 6 your allowed to be on it for 8 weeks so I have 3 and 4 days left.
I start working on a spread sheet for work and I drink my coffee kind prepare myself to workout. I am telling you I love it but hate it! So I instead grab a whole grain muffin with bananas and blueberries and almonds yea I made those lol. so I sit for a while longer talk to my bestie I love her Just even when we check in on each other makes my day! So I keep working till about 10:15 then I decide commit dig push push harder lol yea Sounds Dirty uh get your mind out the gutter that's what Shaun T says as the sweat drips down my forehead as I bust my ass. I do Pure Cardio instead of doing cardio abs though I hold off I know I will be doing some legs and back tonight along with some ab ripper. I am serious right now I want to try as hard as possible to tone my abs and my lower tummy the baby belly before emy cruise and I only have 24 days left and Yes I am pushing myself.
So after my workout I do fuel my body because my one little muffin before the workout was only 150 calories and was nothing special so I make grab one more muffin they are so good lol and then Greek yogart and some cantaloupe and 1 homemade protein bars.Yes I grubbed but other then water I don't eat again till around 7 something.
I messed up there but I did take a nap so that was nice. So anyways I woke up and well let me say this I have a friend who put me on Jamie Eason she is a fitness model and I love her body. I doubt I will ever be able to look like that but I do love it and will strive for it I guess. But one day on her photos I saw spaghetti squash and I was like hmmm I am slowly starting to like sweet potatoes and zuchinini and yellow squash so I decide what the hell lets try it my sister is my taste dummy.
So I make it and well I instantly am like ok this wont do not plain hell no.
So I act like wolfgangpuck up in the kitchen as I am taking the for pulling the squash I throw some spinach tomato red onions corn garlic olive oil and yes that shit became the bomb digity omg I mean my sister who is so weird and hates squash loved it too!!!!and made it with some yellow fin tuna and some miso soup and here is the deal we all may not be so lucky but if not you can make it.
I have a place I can go buy miso soup already made the restaurant is located 2 miles down the road so I pay 3 bucks and have it already made. so I just had to sear the Tuna and create emy amazing spaghetti squash dream.(haha the new name) There is a picture.
So I let my food digest and I type up this blog and again I start to prepare myself as I watch a couple episodes of weeds I get ready to push myself through legs and back and ab ripper. basically thats my problem areas my arms look great my calves look amazing I just have the top inside and outside my thighs to lose and the belly and I wont lie the water is def a secret to losing weight, I have seen more results ever since I told myself I will drink 1 gallon of water a day at least and I will say even when I dont make the full gallon I make most it I am usully off by like 10 oz or less I really can see fat shedding off my body and the water the insanity whatever it is I see it!
So here I after my workout and gave legs everything I have and I do pushup instead of pull ups so I gave that like 50 percent maybe did half but ab ripper I am gave it 100 percent. I still have trouble getting to 25 reps on every move. but after the workout I grab some grapes and melon mhmmm yummy and I also think I forgot to mention it but I am trying this cheap little 15.00 bottle of acai berry cleanse suppose to help cleanse and flat the tummy I figure why not So I drink my last bottle of water for the night which today I drank like 11 bottles of water way over a gallon. Well cant wait to weight in this sat I think this is going to be a good weightloss week :)
Well I hope everyone enjoyed the day and will be back tomorrow.
Dream sweet and keep going even if you only give 50%

Day19: Failure

Hello Internet World,
I know I have done so bad with so many things. It has been so busy and since time is running out and I am not close to my goal I am under some serious pressure. You would think by now to I would be losing serious weight because I have been struggling eating but drinking a ton of water and doing at least one workout a day.
I have been failing at the doing my doubles. I don't know why I want the hot body just not enough time in the day I guess so I cheat and that's not cool either let me give you a run down of my Monday since my weekend I didn't really eat a whole lot or do much except 1 workout and those were the insanity DVDs.
This morning I wake up super early its like 6:30 I get up I forget yesterday to go to gnc and get my second bottle of lipo 6 so I'm like crap well let me just drink my green tea which I do and that's about it I don't eat again till 2 yea I know I am being bad.I need the food but damn it so I get home to and again so much on my plate I couldn't even workout right away I go to the bank, stop by the grocery store to pick up dinner which omg now that was amazing. so I will say the only thing I have done which might be whats making me not hungry but by 2 I am already half a gallon down of water and that's keeping me full so I gotta force food down.but by dinner I am so ready so lunch by the way I had some shrimp green beans mushrooms and hard boiled egg white.
but dinner man oh man I love swordfish it is like steak but without the fat and well fish taste but its thick its like hearty I love it!
So tonight's dinner is baked swordfish season with lemon pepper and garnished with a white wine scallion rosemary sauce yummy!!!!
So recipe is
I used .8 of a lb that's 4oz each and I feed my sister so it works if your feeding hubby or well if its a kid tell them its chicken and hope they cant tell. I did that with my little guy it worked a few times hehe cant help but laugh out loud when I remember the response I got. Lol (mom I don't know how you messed up chicken but you did lol) I finally told him it was fish he hasn't ate it since lol. but just add some lemon pepper seasoning and bake in oven for 25 mins.



to make the wine sauce just add wine sliced and diced scallions 1 teaspoon of minced garlic and let that saute then once most of wine has evaporated cause you should have on med high then add a tad bit I eye ball i am not sure of cream not to much though and then a pinch of rosemary let it boil a bit then remove and top over your swordfish

during that time boil some whole grain rice, I also made some black bean salsa so I had about 8 little chips with a a spoon of that and to top it off some squash and zucchini. yes it all was about 550 calories yumyum. so after I eat this amazing meal I let it digest watch some tv. I love my netflix! I type this up and half watch weeds. I am just starting to get into it. not really cause I type this up and mentally prepare myself. Goal would be to do insanity then push myself to do legs and back and ab ripper x. What will get done lol see I failed and will admit it. I will do my insanity workout and then I am going to cheat legs and back tonight and do just the Ab ripper I really want my stomach to look good on the cruise and what sucks but is great that catch 22 is I only have 27 days and 16lbs to go yea sucks I am not thrilled right now with my body errr scales suck! but anyways its been over a hour I am ready to do this time to move it to my ipod tunes and Shaun t his hot body hmmmm yumyum lol
now if I could find a guy who was a tall dark hair blue eyes and body like Shaun t I promise I would treat him oh so well!!!! lol
but until then I am going to look at him and listen to my clow F*7k you. yea Love that song I am xbox he a atari And the way I play my game ain't fair I bet your fool lol I LOVE IT makes me want to jump around for 4 mins at least lol then listen to usher yeah! keep the bpm's up and my heart rate too!
Good Night world Just press Play A work out is Better then No workout!!!!! you don't always hit your goal as long as you do your best its cool! I get to try again tomorrow!

Day 17: Again fell behind

Hello Internet world
I hope everyone had a amazing weekend. The weather is so nice Sunshine the warm yet cool breeze that blows my hair in my face. The smell of fresh cut grass because for once this year the weather is nice enough to cut your yard and enjoy that 20 -30 mins of outside fresh air. instead of dying sweating being able to not breath cause the air is so dry hot uh thank god its FALL!!!!
So anyways as normal I wake up this weekend no lie starting Friday afternoon and all throughout this awesome weekend. I received my monthly gift haha and well I am a 8dayer I know sounds crazy I cant understand myself but imagine how I feel its like 7-8 days really mother nature hates me! and worst I cramp like crazy so its hard to work out and I know that's a excuse but oh man it makes it tough. So between Friday through Sunday I slacked I used a day off so I really let myself down then this weekend I try ed but Saturday I wanted to push myself. So a run down of Friday ad sat real quick. I take my lipo6 this weekend though I indulge in coffee lol no green tea no water in the am. but I wake up and Friday I barley moved it hurts so bad that honestly I really didn't eat right and i drank water but just was lazy until my sister got home we motivated each other and we did it after a lazy night on Thursday where I didn't workout at all that night I push it cramps in all I love/hate pure cardio I like how fast it goes how its just one after another. so anyways I drink my water go to bed sat wake up those damn cramps uh I hate that I don't let that stop me though. I get moving I go wash my car Which I have a black car so I have to wash it every week. plus it keeps it nice and is good ex cerise and I am single lol I find things to entertain myself and that does I can spend a easy hour or two detailing and cleaning my car listen to tunes and so I do that come home and I set a goal that I don't achieve. :( I get moving I put in and press play shoulders and arms which I love my arms they have shown some true improvement in 180 days no more flaps or wings just biceps and triceps which I love those when you have muscle on the side of your arm and you look and know WOW I never had that before. You cant deny you have seen results. now again you don't always see the results you want in the time you want crap if that was the case I would be like some of my friends who can drop 35 pounds in 90 days it takes my body a year and still I don't have the saddle bags gone or the little bit of baby fat on my stomach. ... which now That I know that it takes my body so long I will never let myself go ever again. remember with age it only gets worst and I am only 25 so imagine. So I Work my shoulders arms then my abs I want to tone my tummy a bit more before my cruise I have 28 days which my goal is to do ab ripper x 14 times this month. Not everyday but every other day. I want to try to tighten up since I am wearing a cute little tiny bikini. lol So I do it I wonder how the hell those dudes put their arms up I try and roll right over my balance sucks I also have such a weak core I wonder if its because I had my son who btw was a big child I was 144-150 when I got prego and again this was 9 years ago. I have had some stubborn baby belly and worse was he was huge so he moved and I think messed up some of my muscle structure you at your tummy research shows having children can strain 2 muscles in the middle of your tummy which is why doctors use the phrase you will never get your body back so come have surgery blah blah which is true 50/50 and muscle in your body can tare. it up to you to rip it and make it strong so it works for you not against you. A child can ruin your body only I can rip my body is what I keep telling myself to motivate me if you need some mental prep think of that for all the mothers who do this workout. so anyways after I am done the mason twist ahhhh as I yell that is my fav move thank god they do it last or I might not make trought the video same goes for the sports section in plyo the bonus round lol. so anyways I but I try as a goal to tell myself to do plyo cardio circuit which I don't. It sucks I hate that feeling. So Today I set a goal and I refuse to not fail I will make it up. btw I am really sad also because this week I didn't lose not a pound I stood still the whole freaking week errrr. so I am not really sure what the heck is going on. So goal for Sunday. Core synergistic and plyo cardio . I want to work my core a lot again I want a sexy tummy and hot ass lol. well anyways A picture of dinner I love to cook So tonight was a garlic curry cod with sliced color peppers with green beans and Thai noodles.
well world I hope everyone has great weekend I promise tomorrow my blogs will be back to format with times an food I kinda just rambled on today lol.