I hope everyone had a great day. First I want to say each breath is a blessing.
Even when you feel like Shaun T takes every last one haha. Well another day I stick it out
for a goal that I have to remind myself wont take over night. Which is a reminder boy I tell you if there was a day I felt like I could go chow down on some choc cake and ice cream it was today.
Have you ever cared for someone but couldnt tell them because it wouldnt really matter. You dont
measure up to their standards which sometimes are freakin outrageous. I also wonder can people really change here I am working my ass off to lose weight which is def a change. He knew me a year ago to be this coca cola drinking no working out candy junkie and on top of that I was all out LAZY, but do men change? I know this already sounds confusing but I have a crush on someone I KNOW I could never satisfy which makes me crazy!!! I have seen him recently and even though he
is not a good guy to me or for me I still like him. He is a great man and he deserves a amazing woman but why is it the qaulities he looks for are superficial, Looks change I am living proof I was 20lbs heavier a few months ago and I am losing the rest now I wonder if I was just 20lbs lighter would I fit his perfect woman status. Hmmmmmm
So I wake up as usual 7:30 I wish I could get up at 5 am and hit the gym but I also wish I had someone to motivate me Tony and Shaun are not on my mind at that time in the morning but maybe after this round I will try to push myself to make that a goal. honestly I am lying I wont wake up to go to a gym solo at 5 am sorry not my style. but its a great thought. So anyways instead of my green tea I just start with my bottle of water and lipo 6. Which again I am into like 2 weeks of using this stuff I love it, I think this is one of the best products I have ever bought. I finally get to eat
9 am is around and then I get motivated and no lie since I am so sore from legs and back yesterday I do kempo that is my last resort dvd from p90x its easy fun and the kicks help me get lose for the rest of the day but there is no cure for sore glutes. It sounds funny but my butt hurts haha and so as I kick and burn a easy 680 calories I eat get this check it haha shrimp cocktail hmmm I know that wasnt what you expected uh. but was not in the mood for a protein shake and I didnt feel like a recovery drink and since I figured I might as well eat them I dont want them to go bad I mixed up some ketchup and horseradish and 9 little shrimp or what they call large but arnt and went on with my day I snacked on stuff but lunch kinda sucked I just ate my chicken salad. I had to make more today between yesterday and today I ate it all ,mhmmmm so I also ate some watermelon threw in some almonds and well I wasnt hungry really .
So I talk to my friend this afternoon and I am just going to pray to god tonight and I say this as advice to everyone pray to god to be loved the way you want to love that special someone,
Try to have the qualities you would expect. As we talk I just kept thinking to myself I will be thin fit healthy and a great catch for a wonderful man who will treat me amazing. Just have to wait for 20lbs to be gone it seems, To bad determination, independence and brains dont count lol.
who know I came home and started cooking dinner and I told my sister jump to it I needed something to take my mind off him. and guess what Shaun T thank you for making me feel like a man cares and wants to push me that keep going and faster faster was just what I needed, as
I bust my ass trying to keep up which I am still not doing great at and no lie I am already so tired I keep pushing and at least I can say One man Took my breath away. Trust me when its time to strech In my heads its time to go to the hospital lol joking but it feels good a pain that I cause , and hopefully will make me super hot! I guess if anyone reads this I am like every other girl I am insecure a hopless romantic who is full of love and dreams and If anyone knows me I am chasing dreams wait for my love to start chasing me. So after I pick myself up off the floor lilly says she is cramping I realize she really hadnt ate today cause she worked this am so I go grab dinner out the oven and I serve us walaaa if you wonder what the orange stuff is. Its my sweet potato chips Its a easy good carb I replace for rice when I am not in the mood for wild rice. So garlic roasted rosemary chicken and salad and chips Also Note I have drank like another gallon of water today which is like 8 gallons of water in like 2 weeks OMG :0. That is amazing for me you dont understand . CRAZY!
Well other then that my life is boring but at least I can say I have changed I normally would have stuffed cakein my mouth and cryed but instead I got fustrated and worked out. Thats a new me. I have changed have you?
Good Night World Dream Sweet
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