MHMMMM FOOD FOOD MORE FOOD :)

Hello Internet world,
I hope all is having a amazing weekend. I hope your staying warm,and getting your Christmas shopping done and well just relax. Enjoy some you time. One thing I love to do is Cook. I find it relaxing and well I love the challenge and you know feeling like wolf gang puck in my kitchen :) So today's blog is not so much on my working out. Which I did I had a rest day, Then did legs and back and ab ripper x and then also some plyometrics. There so you got my weekend workout plus did plenty of walking around malls and stores :) So back to Food. I look and google and search and read all types of recipes. Since I love being in the kitchen and believe in the saying that is a woman's place. I like having new and fresh or classic recipes. I also now like having a bunch of clean or 500 or less calorie meals. and Tasty ones at that. So I here are some of the few I have tryed have pictures of and well just good and maybe a little different then what we are used to I get sick of fish and chicken all the time!!!!
So first recipe is going to be out of my Fitness magazine: Mhmmmmmmm Seared Steak
with eggplant saute
Ok now I cant lie I changed it up. I am still learning to like new food and eggplant is one of them and since the picture looked good I wondered could I switch perhaps eggplant for Zucchini and squash?? Of course beauty about food haha so when cooking for 2 usually my sister and I but if you cook for single just used half of ingredients
what you need:
8oz of skirt steak
1 zucchini
1 squash
1/2 tomato
5 cherry mozzarella or 1oz of feta(I used fresh mozzarella Italian cheese healthier)
2 leave of arugula
1/4 red onion
2 tbs of minced garlic

What you have in your pantry
Pepper
salt
olive oil

its really easy to make just cut your steak in to slices then let it sit in a bowl with olive oil minced garlic a half onion and stir around make sure each slice of steak is covered if you have splash some wine I threw a splash of white wine in there for it to marinade for a min use red too if you like :) while that is sitting there for a second you can take your veggies and take your zucchini and squash and dice it up. add red onion and tomato.
Turn on oven to 350

Now both are ready to cook you first sear the meat I place some olive oil in the pan for not even two min I pan fry the meat you should still see some pink..
Then after all you piece of meat have fry ed a bit cooked half brown you place in another baking pan and place in oven for 10 mins at 350 your oven should already be preheated.
At this point you can pan fry you veggies pour a spoon or two of olive oil heat your pan throw in your veggies I had a little bit of black beans left over from the night before I rinse and threw them the mix to why not why waste food. so a the veggies have been saute I threw a little dash with no salt in the mix mhmm great seasoning.
take everything out and serve once on plate you can add to the veggies diced mozzarella and I used arugula instead of mint But always use what you have don't go buy a 50.00 dinner I spent 13 bucks and feed my sister and I. Here is a picture and I hope if any of you try this you enjoy it as much as I did :)it was yummy

btw I think I made it look like the magazine what do you think there is both


Ok so next recipe is My Stuffed Green pepper Meatloaf it was yummy!!! This is a single serving recipe if you want to make it for more just double or ect
what you need
1 whole green pepper
5 oz of ground turkey
half can of salsa
a veggie of your choice
I used green beans you can use whatever you like!
1/3 black beans

what you may have in pantry or fridge
pepper
garlic powder
ketchup
graded Romano or Parmesan cheese


Directions just mix your turkey with salsa and pepper and garlic powder leave in a bowl while you cut and clean your pepper, once ready stuff your turkey in your green pepper and once stuffed place on pan and sprinkle graded Romano on top. Cut your green beans I always use fresh green beans but you can use the green giant steamers if so just pop in microwave but I boil and then pan fry mine I like fresh produce and cost the same so I boil to clean any bacteria that may be in them. and then throw them in the pan with a little olive oil and garlic. and black beans I was gonna have rice but changed my mind lol.






But there is some pics on how to do that . I hope you everyone out there likes my recipes and will have more for ya today is Sunday and I love Sunday dinner trying another one of these fitness magazine dinners. Will have some more pics for ya and workout details and I will eating very clean the next few days cause there is going to be a lot of booze and good food starting Friday and the whole next week after I pretty much wont give a flip till New Years day yes I start my workout hard core new years no missing days no cheat day nothing no excuses I am going on my next cruise in April as a 3rd time P90x Grad and Hopefully A 2 times Insanity victim :) I do really want to try doubles. I have a great friend who is about to test his limits and its kinda of a way to test mine. He is a former marine who wakes up at 4 am and works out every morning and his body wow and the last year he didn't believe in the dvd bullshit and guess what 36 ls later he is like yea I will try it with ya yay!!!! SO he is going to do insanity with me so Hopefully I am going to knock out both he will push me since I hear from him ever day anyway and I will be held accountable and then there is my girls Lynda,alicia,tanya,Mandy and to everyone who is doing p90x and is holding me accountable for that too this year Beachbody rock hard body 25 lbs gone body!!!! or at least 20 I wont lie I dont know how small I can......... but hey lets see lol I hope everyone has a great sunday Remember first rule of losing weight is losing the junk food. ABS ARE MADE IN THE KITCHEN!!!!!

Ass, Abs, Attitude /P90x

Hello Internet World,
I hope every is having a great morning. Staying dry and warm. Yes its raining here in Nashville Tn. But that wont get me down I rather have rain then snow and ice.
So anyways lets get started you see my title ass,abs, and attitude. I got the thinking last night after conversation I had with a friend of mine. We both discussing our goals I mention the the threat of triple A's as motivation and I know it came out of now where but man I can stop thinking about it.
Ass. I used to be a lazy lethargic ass now I am a healthier more productive ass
Abs. Is the goal I am reaching for. lose my belly love handles and Get the tummy I have always dreamed of and if you ask my close friends a year ago was just a dream.
Attitude. Now that is the biggest accomplishment my whole perspective has changed... I want to eat right I want to workout I WANT TO BE HAPPY and LOVE MYSELF.
As we inch closer to the New Year resolution will be made some kept some failed. I am so happy going in to the New Year as a new me. I am stronger then I have ever been that can be healthy wise and emotionally. I moved here to Nashville My biggest fan/friend/Grandpa/dad died on me and broke my heart. I got depressed and if anyone knows I spent my birthday driving down 40 w I had just a crap end and beginning of year it didn't change till march but wow how my attitude I go into 2011
happy which has made me stronger granted I can say I changed My health now god is still charge of finding me love but I can find good healthy food. I can find my way to either a gym or a track or my living room and find my way to the dvd player and press play/new me.
Every time I press play I keep thinking of my body and me and new me. I know that I have changed. I love the change I embrace the change. I am going to continue this change till its not that its a lifestyle cause no lie I still think its hard work and I still have to mentally prepare. but it gets done yay!!! Now this year I want to lose 25lbs and again be a better happier me. OK so done rambling my food today was pretty good.missed a meal well kinda

breakfast =2 hard boiled egg whites/apple/Greek yogurt
lunch= 4oz swordfish/green beans/black beans
dinner= protein shake
after workout snack protein bar
10 cause I was super hungry = salad with/egg white/bacon/carrots/cheese/sunflower seed
balsamic vinegar

Now that last meal I shouldn't have had!! it was like 10 something I was starving I had to but no lie it was some calories. I still could have had worse but thank god that protein bars taste like candy to me the Carmel and nuts and chocolate yummy.
OK so anyways that's like 400 calories alone the bar so the salad oh wow so will try better today.
Tonight I will be doing a legs and back workout and ab ripper I am telling you I want ABS!!!!!!! SO I hope everyone else has a great day push play and keep motivating and inspiring each other it really helps.
Take care

I love my arms!!

Hello Internet world,
I hope everyone is having a great day today. I also hope most of you are able to stay warm its been freezing like crazy here in Nashville. Do you know we had the coldest night the other day since Jan of the previous year yes 2008. Thanks NEWS for the useless knowledge figured I would spread the word. I also will give out this piece of knowledge ladies If you are looking for a mood changer say your down in the dumps they say walnuts carry a mood enhancer that will help cheer you up so next time your in the grocery store switch it up by walnuts instead of almonds for the week. Put a pep in your step and a smile on your face. Yay now lets see
Other then that I did eat much better today's meals were

8:30 morning 2 hard boiled egg whites
11;00 blc which is Bacon Lettuce and Cheese (I am so weird I hate tomatoes but You have seen me eat them in eggs lol cooked haha)
3:00 Tuna salad
6:00 shrimp,muscles,fake crap meat, with ginger and fresh garlic pan fry fat free cooking spray
9:30 protein shake
10:00 finished my whole gallon of water
11:00 went to sleep

Today I did much better eating no lie though I really had to push myself during my workout. normally I never really get the urge to quit but 15 mins I just wasn't feeling it. but no I didn't quit kept going. Then when ab ripper came on I was like nah but for some reason I LOVE MY BODY it wouldn't let me. It was like shit just get this last 13 mins out the way 2 are stretching. anyways I finished the dvd but I will say it was a struggle and if it tested will power I bout failed but I did it and I will say it pays off I love the way my arms look. I remember last year I went to my BTB BALL in a dress that showed my arms and I felt like I had the lunch lady arm the bird flap yes you know that swoop of just fat that hang on your arm if your like no well let me help again pinch under your arm if you have excess fat you know now what I am talking about. I am so proud to say this year I will be wearing a couture gown this year. I want to show every inch of this body especially by feb 20th I should be close to my goal weight by then. I am so excited and I tell you is it me or after a workout like arms or even legs and back or pull up boys out there you know it feels good when its like instant pain and soreness you know you just did serious work. I love that feeling!!! I am going to say this is the last wee I use 5 and 10 pound weights I am now going to try 8 and 12 pounds that's what dreya uses for the dvds and I am really interested in keeping up now, I had taken it easy cause I broke my arm in a few places so now I think the strentgh has built up I am excited. I only use the 8 pound weights for kickbacks and just the sitting down arm lifts. I also am going to try next week Monday to use the 5lb weight for mason twist during ab ripper. I think that will really help my lower abs. which is one of my problem areas. other then that I was thinking about buying some of the 2lb ankle weights and trying them with my legs and back the reason why I want to try to up the weight is now that I have lost 36 lbs I wonder did I lose Resistance. my legs lost like 5lbs does it mean since it is lighter I am not getting as good as a workout before. this is how my mind thinks so I think It is best to add back some weights to try to tone more. I believe it or not ankle weights like 9 bucks these are things that if you want treat yourself to one a week I am buying my 12 lbs this week so that Sunday I don't feel bad about buying ankle weights Sunday for next weeks workout. Same price as what you spend out at the bar. I bet my 12 pound weights will cost 24 bucks for 2. that I will have something to show for my money. what do you show for your money. I was talking to a friend last night who I was saying I hate my stretch marks and I actually now weight less then her and her exact words were wtf your like 10 ft taller then me. I agree I start explaining how the insanity really just 18lbs in 60 days I cant believe it myself really so as we were talking I explained that I had went for a consultation my baby belly and fat ass and thighs I was 200 pounds I was getting pretty big. but the doctor told me it would cost 10 grand yes 10 k yes enough for a down payment on a house car ect. I was discouraged depressed and determined to not spend that instead I spent 275 bucks
130 for p90x 130 for insanity. Now Like I told her If I would have done the surgery I prolly would have only lost 20 pounds granted I wouldn't have stretch marks just a huge freaking scar. I would chances are gain it right back and be fat cause lifestyle was not healthy. and I would be broke. Now though I am 36lbs lighter I love myself, and found a new sense of health. I don't think in a way that even that 10,000 bucks could buy all that. and I will say this If I can get to my goal weight loss of 60 pounds by march that's priceless. and all because of 260 hard earned dollars. But here is the true test can you or do you want to get off the couch and spend 40-60 mins working out? Do you want to look like the girls at the beach or even some of your friends? I read this the other day and it hit me....
While your admiring a persons body and sitting there thinking and wishing how you had it.... That's like 15 mins you could worked out and had that body. You could burned 150 calories. or you can do ab ripper and get the best,ripped abdominal in your life. Stop admiring start doing!!!! I hope everyone has a amazing day!!!! Thanks for reading:)

kick kick kick punch punch punch

Hello Internet world,
I hope everyone has had a great day so far. Well I guess Its easy to say I fell off track. my DEC has been rocky to start with but last week wed was like my last workout. Thursday was my rest day and damn Friday I pulled my calf muscle and omg I have never hurt like that. it was the most strange painful feeling I couldn't walk it felt like the muscle was in the wrong place and swollen to oh gosh I hurt it bad. So anyways I drank sangria, I ate fatty shit food, and I didn't give a damn.
This week I cant do that I have to try to lose at least I would like 7 pounds in 17 days I really really want to be in the 150"s by new years.and worst is I am so close. like super close. like 5 pounds off close. That means yeas I would have loosed 40 something pounds in 9 month. Oh I want to try to push really hard. now sucks though I already can tell you Christmas eve is my new years eve. I will cook drink with my peeps and chillax. But that is going to be hard try not to gain no weight and still lose while drinking. My drinks are fruity crap so they have a bunch of calories. even so if I just do vodka an sprite Its like dang fructose syrup which btw that's bad for you!!!!! Hint coke and Pepsi and mtn dew if its not diet it has that crap. I love the fact I don't care for soda no more that is a great bonus it was not my resolution but a great accomplishment.I went from drinking a average of maybe 600-1000 calories a day of coke crazy!
So Monday that's where this starts haha I wake up and I make coffee no lie I forgot my lipo 6 and I just started on wrong path I didn't eat till like 1.
That was bad. I still had pain in my calf but I can walk on it now and it just has the bruise to prove I hurt it and the tenderness. I felt like I could do a light workout on it but not to heavy no lunges that would have killed me but I did kempo.
I love kempo. so anyways I didn't do that till late like 11 last night. yea we will get back to that. so I its snowed here so it was again a very lazy day hard to drive around in the city its cold last night the temp got to 12 degrees. wtf.
So for lunch though finally around 1 I had a can of progresso soup the spicy southwest chicken. 1 weight watchers point not that I know how that system works but sounds good for you lol. So then around 3pm I was hungry again so I ate some chicken salad. nothing big.
dinner came around
I ate chicken black beans and the bomb salad yum after 45 mins of playing and texting on facebook. I got motivated and wanted tokick some ass burn calories and
feel like I did something not just sat on my ass first day of the week it starts the week wrong I feel. So I knew that core was out of the question to many lunges and my leg still hurt and I thought kempo was perfect. The kicks the punches it was exactly what I needed. and I will say this if you have any stress in your life for 50 mins your kicking the stresses ass you are in charge I go as hard or as fast and I want I am wicked quick I can punch like no other I will not be crotchity!!! haha I love how tony says that he doesn't believe in age be good to your body it will be good to you . and I don't ever want to feel old and crotchity lol.
Now here is for my goal I want to lose another 20 pounds but I bought a pair of white jeans Victoria secret jeans and if any one has ever bought their jeans you have to be built a certain way tall lean I have to get rid of the saddlebags and some booty. I love the way these jeans look and THEY ARE A SIZE 8 which is REALLY like a 6. but I am praying that in the next 90 days that I can loose 20 pounds be a size 8 and take my vacation in April to st,Lucia with some abs and a sexy ass. come on That's what I am working for. Feel free to email me let me know what do you work for what are your goals believe it or not I love your emails and comments it really does push me! I hope everyone has a great day today. I am going to do some arms and shoulders ab ripper x and I want to do the stretch dvd or at least half of the dvd just get some good stretching in!

My weekend....:)

Hello Internet World,
Hope everyone has ha da great weeken mine was awesome it was lazy it was cold it was also very quiet. So I got tons of pics of yummy tasty low fat and healthy food I also have a new trip planned that I DEFINITELY need to build up strength and flexibility.Snowboarding in the mtns yay!!! 5-6 of my closest friend are joining me for a weekend at sugar mtn we are going to rent a cabin cook drink snowboard ski and tube hell yeahh I am so siked but last year or was it the year before I bought died I was so outta shape so hopefully this year is so much better I am exctied but anyways.... So lets start with Saturday that was a nice day still very sore but I knew I could bust some butt. So once I got done with cleaning and well yea that's my laundry day and well I had to clean kitchen and talk to a dear friend of mine who lives way up in chilly philly so as we discuss our politics and our different taste in literature and sounds funny but I love how smart he is. I have spent 8 years being friends with a very awesome but yet stern strict very set in his ways kind of guy. But my knowledge in my financial fields some of the best tips I have ever got for investing money and stock bonds and mutual funds and well he did teach me everything I know about the stock market and our picks and research on companies and haha I could just ramble on anyways sit and talk to him for 2 hours and then I got off the phone and wanted to eat I have done well as far as food no more going out to eat no more spending money on food that is unhealthy and I want to know everything I put in my mouth. so lets get the pics of food started yay!!
so here is a salad that was for my lunch on sat. well kinda it was my lunch and then 2 hours later I decided to drink a shakeology. That way I could gain some energy not be hungry for awhile which the reason why you are not hungry gosh the taste is so bad that even water taste like crap after! But anyways that night I for dinner made some really good chilli. Now I should added turkey but I didn't screw it. But it was super good and here again more pictures yay:) So this was just Saturday haha Sunday gets better :) but anyways I after was full of energy no lie its like 8-10 at this point do some arms and shoulders and ab ripperx I swear my core right now hurts so bad. so bad. but that means its working that's what my goal is either this round I am gonna lose tummy or thighs and ass either or I am losing one of them damn it. and as I READ AB ARE MADE IN THE KITCHEN! so my food has got to be good for me and tasty well Sunday I have my friend Dr. King lol who is about to marry my friend India yay!!! I am so excited I feel like I was such a huge part of that not really but I love it and they truly are like a fairy tale. So anyways I tell him since he is doing Insanity with me and He is studying for his boards and needed a really good home cooked meal so I told him come over for Sunday dinner I love hosting. I cant wait that's one of the reasons I will buy my first home next year! I want a amazing kitchen :) so anyways Sunday comes around I plan to make the island pork tenderloin I think that's the name Its from the p90x Nutrition Guide I actually will say if you mae the recipes in there They are super good. So here are a few before and After pics and I wont lie Sunday very boring life rest day for body to recover cause this week I am going to try to go at this hard core I want to do my doubles and eat right and work on losing and gaining if that makes sense gain lean muscle lose fat! So here is how I make it Look I slice sweet potato and the apples I slice them up but if you place the apples behind the sweet potato omg the taste of the sweet potato is amazing!!!!

So this is what I made for Sunday dinner all in all
I made the my 4 cheese spinach and I made this awesome salad I find my self trying to eat 1 or 2 salads a day more veggies less fat food. And the Island pork yumyum!!!!
Also if you have a container you can drain your pan and use the juices as like a gravy its amazing that gravy I also think that if you are ever looking for a gravy for your ham and you want to cut out the whole brown sugar or even substitute sugar this would be amazing and all natural yeah crazy uh. Believe me it will make your taste buds jump. Do what I do drain into a ramekin and put a spoon in let each put as much or as little on the pork :) well other then that pretty boring Kev watched some greys anatomy with since he is in the medical field He digs this drama shit lol.
Well I have some workout to do today. As you know its Monday my blogs are always a day late lol I write them the next morning with coffee in hand. While I mentally prepare for my workout of the day. Today is Max Intervals I need to burn max calories and hope that tonight's kempo will be easy!! and quick I love the karate stuff the kick boxing and the punching its fun quick and done before I know it.
Ok well I hope everyone has a amazing day and My thena helps me sign off
take care

Day 2 and already to rough start :)

Good Morning Internet world,
I hope everyone is having a great day thus far..... I am happy alive breathing and so sore its not even funny!! Yes I guess when you take a broken 2 weeks off and then come back at it as hard as I am you feel torn apart. I my abs omg I swear my whole core area wow its so sore that I Pushed and did awesome burned 700 calories during max recovery but ok this is where I already started messing up so I keep hearing form the word form and I can tell you last night trying to do cardio x I got through 16 mins no lie close to 17. My form sucked my keeping my core tight was killing me its so tight and in pain errr. So I gave in and didn't finish decided to rest instead :( . Wish I didn't feel so guilt about it. But I really want to give it my all. The first 2 rounds I was still struggling with food now that I pretty much have all out cut the sodas, the shit food, and finally learned proportions I do think I will be getting more out on p90x plus drinking over a gallon a water a day will do it I have done great at that the last 2 days drinking water water water. so my routine again in a nutshell
7 am wake up coffee and lipo 6 and 20 oz of water
9:32 am start workout Max recovery which really made me sore.
10:20 breakfast eggs again with tomato and scallions and vanilla Greek yogurt.(strawberry taste better)
12pm between water and now some tuna and chips yes I was already hungry again after breakfast.
4pm I finally take my second lipo 6 . and drink more water
5:30 pm make some dinner once again swordfish black beans and asparagus along with a salad. Big dinner cause I either skipped a meal or was just super starving but here are some pics :)

8pm try to do my second work out 16 mins in and 134 calories burned I throw in the towel. call it a night

8:20 drink a muscle milk and ya hand full of almonds I will say serving size 26 sounds about right.
12 I went to sleep.

Now I have got to work more on food not so much what I am eating I got to eat more. but I swear it is so hard. But anyways today I got some chest shoulders ab ripper x which lord I ask for the power to push me through these workouts cause I still on top of that have a max cardio condition ahhhhhh. That's over 2 hours of hard working out. pray for me lol but I cant wait to get my body right and I really am excited I will be hoping to have lost the last bit of weight or even sizes this round and goal is to say 60 lbs gone in one year =) yes goal right now is 10lbs this month but really its 25 in 90days the last 25 to go.
I will be happy if I Can just lose 20 lol but tony your the man and I can do this and so can you just press play!! Have a great day everyone!

As we start back at 1 yay P90X!!!!!! Round 3

Good morning Internet world,
I hope everyone who is up an moving has a blessed and safe day! I am yes I am bright and bushy tailed and May I just say for the lack of sleep which it was just broken cause I forgot when You drink over a gallon a water in a day shoot especially at night after a workout you will pea all night!!! I do I got up 4 times in like 7 hours and each time I get up my dog is like yay play time your early lol so It takes me 5-10 mins of please stop thena. lol and her head laying on my bed while sitting so awkward staring at me lol. but anyways Let me just say ,I was super proud of myself yesterday Wed Dec 1,2010. It is the first day of my Round 3 of p90x and I love it I am so sore my abs/core are tight when I cough it hurts and I love the way it hurts. I rather hurt this way then have a broken heart or any other emotional pain that comes with life. but anyways Lets start with my day
7am wake up no lie Coffee /Colombian with a splash of coffee mate french vanilla and splenda with lipo 6 and I started chugging water bottle.
9am I worked out yes I missed Tony gosh he is sexy to me seeing him core and after 60 days with Shaun. Tony just hits the attention span spot where I follow him and listen to hi and sometimes repeat himself to myself lol. I know I am weird haha but I burned some calories oh I sure did. I Swear this lipo 6 I haven't taken it in 5 weeks and I tell you what I swear once again a rocket was lit under my ass.
10:45 I drink a ovaltine/ milk drink to kinda recover I need to buy recovery drink but I hate spending 50 bucks on a drink I already bitch about 20 on protein at gnc.
So I also make 1 egg with 4 egg white I also add scallions and tomato's for flavor pic there :)
I also had a Greek yogurt.
12PM APPLE
2pm Ok so here let me just say I am already 60 oz into my gallon I drink a lot which is what keeps me from being hungry and its not a good thing :(
3 PM Lunch was @@@@@@@@@ drum roll @@@@@@@@ Shakeology
I suggest get choco flavor because anything in the world taste better then the ass and apple crap I am chugging down the greencrap is nasty I almost puke every time I drink it. seriously I have to hold my breath and chug it down if I stop and breath It might come up.... so that's my advice
5pm I am starving no lie but I forget to eat and I didnt want to mess up my workout routine so I talk to my bff and grab 26 almonds that is a serving size people yes count it out!!!!
5:45pm workout and no lie I barley made it through I my abs were already getting sore from core and Shaun didn't help so i gave plyo maybe 60 %effort I will give the max recovery 100% today!!!I swear!
7PM SHOWER AND MAKE DINNER
Swordfish /black beans /salad
Now I would have a picture but couldn't find my camera and honestly I saw food and couldn't hold off to look for camera I was hungry!!!!
9 pm I eat 13 mini rice cakes with a glass of milk serving size is 113 calories and fixes sweet tooth.
11pm bed
I have no life lol btw pic up top of my 3-4 days fruit apples mangos and avacados yummy.
So anyways today I had cardio and then max recovery tonight but I think I am going to switch it cause max is more intense and so I also think cardio x is for some reason a easy workout by the time I am done stretching lol yoga part I only have like 20 mins to go woot woot.
Well have a great day everyone time to get started !!!!

Alright Past 60 days But awesome results and Better Me

Hello Internet World,
Its me Melissa Long time no talk to uh. It feels like forever and well lets just say it has been rough for me. I have fell short with insanity and what sucks is I seriously only had the last 10 days left what I know I am cursing my self, But I am not letting it stop me I am just doubling up in the first 10 days of P90x yes you heard right! I am back at it hard core. I love life. I am pushing myself right now cause I don't want to say I quit insanity with 10 days left that makes me sound like a loser and I also don't want to start p90x half way through Dec and since I am trying to lose 10 lbs during the month since I have notice that not working out for a week and missing a few workout the prior week I feel like my muscles were getting to lose if you know what I mean.
So today I am just doing a Max Interval Workout. 59 mins and hard core. May I just say. Oh and Oh before I go on I do want to say that in the last 49 days of insanity . I didn't lose 20lbs in 60 days I lost 18 in 49. :) I am super proud to say that, I swear I could believe it 183 STARTING WEIGHT YESTERDAY 165.4 AND WOOT WOOT and my size 10 are to big for me!! that says something cause I still ate like there was no tomorrow when I was at home cause Thanksgiving this year had to be one of the best I have ever had in my life! I wouldn't change or take 1 min away from it! So back to point. so starting tomorrow Dec 1.2010 I start Round 3 of P90x with 9 days remaining of insanity. and again Goal 10 lbs loss in 1 month and 25 in total in 90 days. with that being said Tony I want abs this round!!!!! I got two give me 4-6 lol :)
OK so my day...
I wake up at like 6:50 am I know early for me but sleep sucked btw No more talking on the phone late night Mr.right stuck his penis in another woman = over :) lol my formula.
So I wake up Make coffee and Which at this point its official today was my last day of really screwing up. No more coffee its back to green tea and a gallon of water a day. I Was going to start today but had no lipo6 which I am going to start up again I think that fat burner did help.So I do the normal wake up take my Athena out to pea I wish I could say I walk with her but I am not a cold person and right now OMG it is freezing here in Nashville I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!! I do !!!!!!Plus rain yuck!!! SO. I run back in the house read my girl Alicia's blog which may I say was awesome cause It was my grocery list So I didn't have to make one + I figure If it works for her then it might work for me. I also love cheap shopping and some how I manage to spend like 100 on food so it was nice to try and see if it works feeding Lilly and I for that, but no lie we buy to much extra crap. I need to get out of the house. But so anyways I run errands finish work and well I get done with all of that pretty late so I start pushing myself. I again didn't eat so great so my goal is Dec 1 that is the day which tomorrow everything goes back to strict. easy for me to follow the 90 days which its based on the first of the month is anyone else like that or just me .... I wonder and drift off to space lol.
So as you can see I am typing this so sitting here bored mentally preparing myself for a power packed workout. I also need it I have some serious frustration to let out.
No lie that's why I picked the max interval I feel like that one is the hardest I burn the most when I give it my all and even when I don't I still clear over a 1000 calories burned so I like it!
Well For dinner tonight its simple I am drinking water having a salad yes greens keep dinner light. I am still eating on turkey from thanksgiving my mom sent with me so I figure why waste it no lie I am easy to please I heat it up in my radiation microven lol and just add hot sauce lol. I feel ghetto as I type this but it does the trick.

Tomorrow I am going to try really hard to do this 6 meals a day wow I hate it I don't ever feel like I need to eat that much but I may because I will be doing 2 workouts! :0 So
I am about to go workout and well I like the fact I have to finish this blog after working out it makes me accountable and I like telling how many calories I burned and blah blah.... ok 60 mins ago I was feeling lazy but pumped not I am so drain I love Shaun you hurt me bad in a good way!!. I am so tired and I am dreading tomorrow which in no lie is today because I was so tired I didn't get back to this blog lol. so here are last night dinner and this is supposed to be Tuesday blog. Also that means you are gonna have a lot of reading cause I will try to write tonight. I am pumped cant wait to start p90x in just a little bit . Doing my morning mental preparation. then bust my ass I want a amazing body and before I sign off I am going to leave you with.... People will notice when you do a program like p90x I have so far in total between p90x and insanity from 5"10 and 200lbs to 165 and dropping I am determined to lose the last 25 pounds and even if it take me past this 90 days I have learned so much and 80 % of sex appeal is being happy and loving your own skin. I am still not the smallest I still have problem areas but this week people noticed such a change in me I was proud to say I have done completed and redoing the p90x program and being a part of beachbody itself. let you hard work shine just because the scale doesn't move and ask people who have watched me my scale has moved super slow I mean example march till Dec that's a long time. But love yourself and others will notice. I love my 165 and am gonna love 140 even more!!!! Love you guys thanks for reading

I fell short

Hello Internet World,
I'm going to make this short and sweet I have ate super healthy. I have Done so bad at working out. I wont lie when you have no energy its hard to push yourself to do such a insane workout. Its weird Not energy per say but I felt drained my sleep is broken,I have a cyber stalker btw Hey Bitch I know you read this . And sad thing is you guys she refers to me as Her hobby wtf kinda crazy bitch do I have on my hands and on top of that jealous are we I mean weird . btw sorry for the foul language. But I have a cyber facebook stalker she would read my blog read my page and send emails to random people bashing me and weird she mentions my weight loss so because I choose to get a life quit smoking make myself healthy which yes Back in March I quit smoking I want to be healthy and in The best shape of my life. I am actually I am 5"10 164lbs and I wear a size 9/10 more on the 10 side though no lie I got a colombian booty and it ain't going nowhere!
But anyways now that I vented she made me cry no lie I will give her that satisfaction but because of her I wrote a new song and its kinda hot! So other then that I have cooked amazing meals here in a pic of last nights din din and recipe and lets see I am going to workout tonight I am having to push my self and really dig deep I have like 12 days left of insanity and dude I am struggling I cant wait to do some p90x again I hate this cardio cardio cardio I love tony haha, well I think my goal next round is actually though to do p90x everyday and add a insanity workout 3x week on top basically on weight days and not worry on days I do plyo ,core, kempo. Ok going to do some max recovery tonight!!! Yay!!! get back in the swing of it since I did take a two maybe 3 day break. OK so here is the recipe its super healthy.

Indian Curry Chicken
1 lb of diced chicken breast
6oz of fat free plain yogurt
2 table spoon hot sauce ( add more you can make to your taste as spicy as you like!)
I use a hot ginger curry spice you can find at supermarket! I also eye ball it so add a few shakes if it doesn't look orange and spicy then needs more spice!
Bake in oven for 45 mins and wow
add a salad I also added squash and zucchini and your bottle of water this makes for a great tasting healthy low calorie dinner.
You will be stuffed! My sister dies for it!


I hope everyone has a great day!

The story of the Fish :)

Hello Internet World,
I hope everyone has had a awesome Sunday. It was beautiful and for me a lazy Sunday which is always a great thing I very rarely just lounge around all day. But I did but I did do one thing that was very productive I cooked a amazing meal. Days like today make me thank god for just being alive and having two hands and being able to move around the kitchen and make something that is super healthy delicious and homemade which always the best! So let me tell you the story of the FISH.


This guy was one day swimming in a lake or somewhere with fresh water :)
and sucks for him he got caught in a net well short story lol he ended up my publix supermarket. Now I love trying to cook new things so when I see a whole fish in the market I tend to like to play with it and I think I have outdid my self.
So again he started looking like that dead on my chopping block with little eyes and all I chop off his head de bone him and put him in the pan I decide to make A seasoned pepper parsley rainbow trout and stuffed clam shell with garlic wined saute mushrooms and green beans with fat free baked beans My god yumyum yum!!!



This is how that poor fished turned out tasty and my god If I could kiss the cook I would lol!! I am now going to finish digesting this meal then do my plyo workout go me. Have a great night everyone And don't forget to push play do it 80% diet 20% workout 100% determination is needed. Dig Deep!

Is Cardio good for Broken Heart??

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I hope everyone is having a great day I guess this blog today is going to be a mix of two days Sat and Today Sunday. I originally was writing this yesterday. But between eating a late dinner working out talking on the phone all night omg I am serious Its so funny I literally had 3 times zones in my head and trying to mend a broken heart while trying to not to break my own or lets someone take mine. I feel like I am dying. I am falling head over heels for a man who lives across the fricken country wtf am I thinking????? and Then My friend from back home poor guy he has kept me up asking for advice and worst part is I just want to shout from the roof tops I met this amazing guy and I feel bad I cant I mention about my dream guy but cant get into detail because it makes him feel like a tool which he kinda is or was lol anyways
bam this is breakfast for a champ I wake myself up the last 3 days eating this goodnass :) yeah baby haha.
So Lets see more about my day screw my love life. I okay I get motivated it was so nice out I talk to my girl we plan on going to the mall and so I pick her up and well another picture its me in my car. btw my guy and I are so alike we both took pictures in our car and he sent me his last night Ijust giggled we are so alike he doesn't have no clue :) I did the same thing.
this is india typing away lol


so anyways I go to Victoria secrets and oh I bought the cutest silver slingbacks I actually picked them over the new call of duty black ops and that's crazy cause I love me some video games. But then I go to eat with my sister try some crazy food like frog legs yuck and pics on face book of that and well lets see just missing this man. Its so funny I live my life just like I did before I met him I just wish he was here to be a part of my world and do things with me now I cant stop thinking about him and well no lie the hot flashes of us making out and water wrestling in the grand Cayman's and the picking me up throwing me against the wall even my best friend was like hot dude super hot and he was just playing around I swear I want this man how do I make a long distance thing work???? Oh lord so anyways I don't want to ramble this guy is on my brain so ok back to business I finally get home and push my self to do some max cardio conditioning I swear that healed me. I was so anxious to talk to Paul that Shaun t talking to me and making me work for 47 mins it did the trick for one moment of the day I was able to stop think about myself and it felt amazing,I don't suggest running though If I would have been at the park I know me I would have kept thinking of him holding my hand and haha the dog nah just joking I would hold Athena she is my daughter / monster lol and yea so insanity is so perfect for me I will say this 7 days down 20 left can I get a what what I think If I can lose say another 5 lbs I will be very happy . I then will take one week off and start some p90x again I miss it so much!! Well I guess everyone have a great day will write again tonight I hope we will see otherwise heads up doing some max plyo!!! just press play everyone and sorry I am rambling I got bit by love bug on vacation and Its unknown the side effects of this attack :)

Max Intervals Suck!!

Hello Internet world,
I hope that you all have a had a great day and happy at that. I swear I have been so happy the last 2 weeks and I swear I am have been more sleep deprived and some how I got bit by the love bug! and I Like my new friend to but anyway lets do math little sleep= little energy for workout until you throw cheesecake factory in the mix haha.
So lets start with I wake up eat breakfast drink water I am doing good with my gallon a day. I also have been trying to eat clean but tonight I cheated my girl India came in to town and well I wont lie kinda short on female friends here in Nashville all my friends are back home in nc so its really great to have a female to hang out with here I am a girly girl and like to be around other woman who are strong and happy you know good people. well she is engaged to a great guy friend of mine and well I have been def pushing for them. They along with another friend inspire me due to they all made long distance relationships work and since I am trying for the first time to really work something out or live in the moment and enjoy every second of it. So As I catch up with my girl do the girl talk catch up on gossip get juicy details and all out have cocktails and cheesecake and a Boston salad and a we had a bunch of the small appetizer we kinda just try a little everything laugh tell stories I loved every min of it and good thing is she did to better then watching the doctor study for the board my friend Kevin and Betty we left them to their mac books and dentistry reports they go to the medical school me harry here in Nashville . I worked out I did the max interval burned a bunch of calories felt super good and well I cheated I had some sugar the cheesecake was not good for me but hey its life and I feel like I deserved it by being good and working out all week and pushing myself. so over the weekend I will eat super clean and push myself doing some good workouts and I will go ahead get a good run in tomorrow I am going to take the dog to Edwin Warner park and well pretty much that's my life. Here is picture before we left for dinner so excited got to hang out with great people about to talk to sweetest, and sexiest man I have ever met and then hopefully get some sleep who knows it may be another 3 am night. I am lovin it dadadadadaaaaa

Back to Business: Distraction is the Topic

Hello Internet world,
I hope all is doing very well. I also hope you are blessed and have had time to go outside its been beautiful almost everywhere in the united states god bless America and Our Veterans!!!! They deserve a huge thanks today too!
So about me I know I have been slacking kinda in and out with the blog last 2 weeks :( We knew the vacation was going to take place so 1 week I have excuse but this week no lie I have worked out out 3 out of 4 days but I choose to talk on the phone and sleep instead of type and I am so sorry about that guys I know to some of you its motivation trust me I read several blogs in the am to get me just motivated hear and seeing the struggles of losing weight it a battle a war in fact. You have to push yourself and Over my cruise I met someone who I wont lie I just want to be with so when I have a chance even to talk to him I take advantage of it and I have stopped in the middle and just deleted a post .Last night I even didn't work out just to talk to him and sad I felt guilty to my body I love this song by the pussy cat dolls its hush hush and(btw I m a songwriter I compare my life to music lol) I listen to it everyday when I workout Its how I stay strong and I today as I am running my dog around the mall I did I got mad at myself It pushed the lyrics got me I'm sorry for the way I let go of everything I WANTED when you came along and I wont do that I have worked so hard to push myself to be this strong beautiful healthy woman I WONT LET MYSELF GO DAMN IT. lucky he is healthy and works out and well no lie has a better body then I do so I have to work hard to get better so I look good for him or well myself and him but Oh do you have songs that not so much reflect person but yourself that push you gosh that and beyonce listen its slow but I love it I feel like I work harder hearing soul maybe lol but other then that I have all fast stuff on my ipod but so here is some pictures of my diet I am doing pretty good have ate clean except the Jersey Mikes sub Had for dinner tonight because I missed the bread and company by 7 mins but hey that also saved me like 13 bucks lol well I have some ab ripper to do now that I have let my food digest after cardio conditioning which by the way Ihad to burn 400 calories running today I only burned like 700 and some change with my dvd workout I don't know why will push hard tomorrow and dig super deep. Thank Linda for the push this am! find someone and feed off them I saw her calories burned and I wanted to feel the pain like her its a great feeling!! Have a great night world dream sweet cross your fingers too I kinda like homeboy!

Lets go back 7 days:Phase 2 begining

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Im back after a amazing yet rough week on vacation I am glad to be home and well rested.I was no lie so tired So unable to move it seemed I did sleep in like crazy it was like 10 am and I was still kind tired and yet still am but you cant make up sleep.so got moving well I am and was still not on the ball and by the way did not workout at all. I was so lazy but hey its called vacation for a reason and if you walked as much as I did between the long ass boat and the islands everyday and i got sick so lost a lot of fluid especially the day in Mexico lol to funny but anyways so today Monday. I wake up get some things done and get home. When I get home there was nothing I mean nothing in my fridge to eat. so I go back out I go to the grocery store. I figure I will buy all my fruits chicken, eggs well I eat egg whites but spinach and fruits and almonds and all the goodness to get back on the diet try to lose 5 pounds by thanksgiving which is literally in like what 16 days haha and well its possible and I also am going to just restart phase 2 of insanity. Since I only got to the first 5 days why not push and dig deeper. so I buy 100 bucks worth of food my little sister has it so made I come home and make the works some really good chili. I normally don't eat the stuff but was in the mood and here it is 6:47 and it hit the spot I mean I did the damn thing and so while cooking I decided I would workout after dinner so I would have energy since again didn't eat breakfast. I ate a powerbar and had a glass of water. I had coffee when I woke up so that glass of water tasted like heaven omg!! but no I did not get a gallon down today maybe I half if not a little more but no where close to a full gallon. But to go with the chili I needed something so I wanted to make it good and it was I made this super dank salad yes Romain with cucumber avocados cheese carrots and sunflower seeds and bacon bits to top it off it was awesome only thing missing was the egg whites but didn't feel like cooking them I had already forgot but there you go a site to see hmmm yummy. I also use light balsamic vinaigrette so try to keep calories low.


But again as I am digesting this amazing salad and chili I start mentally preparing myself / writing this getting ready for some max interval circuit and trust me I having to push myself, why is it when we take a break for 7 days its like uh I could go another day without but nonono I need to be strong /sexy! so lets see other then posting all the pics from the cruise on facebook,nd catching up with everyone I guess its good night world I am ready to workout as soon as I finish typing this and I am going to make it a early night!

Day 41: Wed & Thursday & This morning

Hello Internet World I hope everyone is having a good morning so far. That is if your even awake its 5:31am . I normally wouldn't be up at this time no lie. I would be dreaming away in lala land. I would be still recovering from my late workout granted it was recovery but that's a lie. My thighs beg to differ the inside of them! ahhhhhh but even so I again wish I WAS ASLEEP!!! So the reason I am not asleep is my dog her tummy I knew she was going to be sick :( after my workout yesterday I had the worst sweet tooth and because I know myself If I don't have something in the house I will go out and get it and I tend to binge. I wont eat sweets for few weeks then load up in one day then go with out then binge lol. it sucks but that's my deal and well if your a woman follow my binge blog days and its usually when Aunt Flow comes to visit yes this sucks ass That not only is my dog sick from low fat vanilla ice cream that fell on the floor and I was trying to clean up but have you ever seen a animal experience the taste of vanilla my dog was like on crack It was more pulling her out of the kitchen to get to the crate then clean otherwise she was cleaning it all up herself and super quick to. So I get her up clean eat the little bit I had left and finish downing my water. I am still on the lipo 6 and I tell you what I am almost done with this bottle and almost done with my insanity can you believe it??? OMG!!!!
well I want to show you all some pics this is now and then and trust me I can see the improvements as well I know the pictures show some but not the whole effect :)But for the record as of yesterday I have lost total of 25 pounds and I am so proud and cant wait to keep going I really want to see what my tummy area can look like and see if I can magically for the first time in my life wear size 4-5 I mean that would be cool but that will be next year by the end of this year I want to be a 7-8 I am in a 10 now from a size 14-16.
OK so lets also go back to wed I didn't blog that day either I don't know why sometimes I cant wait to get on here and write others I just want sleep. But anyways pure cardio in phase 1 pretty tough keeps you moving and its like 15 mins of crazyness, So the Max Cardio Conditioning holy moly you should have seen me after every damn move I was waiting for a water break That I swear never came I had to take breaks oh lord thank god I can get away with the excuse its my first time ever doing that dvd because it kicked my ass and I tell you no wonder this system works it has to literally burn and blast my fat! I will say this also I have burned total of 11 pounds of fat so far in my 40 days I do believe this program with have me down full 20 pounds once I am done. I am so happy I have been changing my life! well today we start the madness all over. I am going to max interval circuit and I am also so excite tomorrow I leave for vacation and Yay! well going to lay here watch law and order wishing I was asleep but my day started shitty literally my dog was sick in her crate thank god I didn't have to clean carpets and things I love my German shepherd she will get sick in her crate before my carpet that's loyalty for you! I also am going to drink my like 3rd cup of coffee since 4:30 am yay me. OK I will try to post once more before vaca but no guarantee. I hope everyone has a great Friday a safe weekend and take care!

Day 38: Just Press Play!

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I hope you have had a great day! Its Tuesday I am so excited just a few hours away from closing my eyes going to sleep and waking up to the half way mark the Hump Day the middle of the week the point where you see Friday and sat so clear so close. Vacation is on the brain but shaun t was working my body! Yes I DID IT!!! I made it through today my second workout in the max series and wow thank god I only have 26 more days of this torture and your might be thinking hey that's a few extra days but I added a few cause I think I might miss a few on vacation I am going to try not to but drinking and tanning and gambling just might not push me to click the mouse on the computer and also watch with no music and look like a dufas on the gym floor cause if you have ever been on a cruise the bedrooms/cabins are like a small pack of gum you can barely change your clothes with out hitting a night stand or corner of a shelf or hit your head on a tv lets along start with kicking and doing mummy walks. so I plan on trying to wake up early and or sometime when a whole lot of people are not in the gym going in there watching and doing some insanity. Who knows I might get someone to jump in lol I am a leader lol.
well not much to say other then I wasn't really feeling working out today but just press play even when you don't want to after doing 10 mins your body will change its mind the endorphins start pumping and the blood moving though your veins it changes your whole attitude. So even if you don't want to just try. I also am praying to see some serious results soon because this phase 2 its not only hard its long and a pain in the ass. yes I love it / hate it I cant wait to be skinny and start working out for like 30 mins to maintain. yes I hate this lifestyle bs crap people push you and I know if We could look this good but just hanging out drinking and living it up We would all do the have fun workout. But we cant so I will keep working out trying to get that sexy body I feel it coming soon. and cant wait to weigh in on saturday to see what the total weight loss was before my cruise wish I would have had a full 60 days but anyways now I am just rambling. lol
Oh also when you dont want to work out bribe yourself! it works I went today and bought the rest of my a a a alchol for the booze and cruise and I saw the bread and company and its not really so much of a treat as the Their Fruit tea I LOVE THAT STUFF YUMYUMYUM! So I buy my over priced Delicious salad and large fruit tea I put that in the fridge I didnt eat it till after I worked out I told myself right when I got home get going I wanted to grub on this mhmmmmm. ok good night everyone lol I am going to watch some law and order and play xbox and go to bed!

Day 37 :OMG to the Max!!

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I want to start tonight off by just saying insanity is no joke! If you think the first 30 days were hard just wait. Now with that being said I also want to say if you have done p90x you might agree or disagree but p90x has nothing on insanity. I never once thought that p90x was as hard as what I did today or even the last 30 something days and well I am not looking forward to tomorrow. That shit was bananas!!! You only get really 13 mins maybe of stretching and that total video so for the rest of the 48 mins your going super hard with your few 30 second breaks that in this video today was really not enough. I mean wow my heart rate monitor even spelled out wtf lol joking but still in 59mins and 49 sec I burned 1074 calories yes I know I did at least 900 calories I was wearing on my shirt it was soaking wet like nasty eww yuck soaking wet I have never burned calories like that and it make plyometrics x look like a damn cake walk yes like as simple as oe step in front of the other. I am not lying it was crazy. I have some video footage I just have to play with it to try to get it on the blog I have only been able to get one video on here. it always kicks it back saying failed to upload. but will keep trying.
Ok so second thing You will have to have arecovery drink dude I felt like I was literally about to die after the workout thank god my good friend alicia gave me a few samples of p90x recovery dtink I had 1 left and if there was a time to use it wow it was today I felt drained and yet needed something after the workout water was just not enough and I tell you I really didnt think the recovery drink was that tasty till today when it was exactly what I needed! it queched my body's thirst for energy sugar protein everything I need ect! I so need to invest in some recovery formula.
other then that I am going to relax and before bed aim to try to do a ab ripper x I only have 5 days and still not the abs I am dreaming of! But anyways have a great night everyone and Will be back tomorrow with max plyo ahhhhhhh!!!!!

it like Day 32-33-34: RECOVERY WEEK~

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I hope everyone has had a awesome week so far! I am super excited yet still bummed. 1rst vacation is in 9 days whohoo yay I cant wait I am so ready to leave this land and put my boat legs on! yes the walbbaling I will be doing from being drunk and the boat moving and oh the gambling I will do. ask anyone who has gone on a cruise with me you find my ass at the blackjack table drunk half the time losing but I don't give what!!! lol I LOVE IT the people you meet when you lose and the people you meet when your winning and the dealers who I always sit at the hot guys table or the banging chic cause either way I get eye candy lol why hot guys go sit with hot chic dealers and I well if I have a hot dealer guy well Eye candy straight ahead lol. plus I also cant wait to be drunk yes drunk and this year we are taking the beer pong float. During the summer one of my neighbors she was so cool she brought this float and her and her awesome roommate we would play and get hammered at the pool with the amazing floating beer pong table that you can take anywhere my plan is not only late night after party in Melissa's room but shit when I am at the grand caymans I am so taking this to the beach I will never travel with out it!

But lets go back to basics


A. I have been eating ok other the last week when company game in town and I ate like every carb on the planet I have done very well this week.
B. I have been doing cardio core and balance and wow I love it but hate this one!
It is easy yet hard slow but fast its recovery and doesn't really feel like recovery but I have noticed every time I do this workout 3 days so far my calories burned have decreased so I am slowly either recovering or its not taking as much energy with each day. 724 mon , 701 tues, 668 wed, so I will tell you what today's calories burned in tomorrows blog.
C. I have weighed myself and as I wish I could say I am so close I am not yet I have lost weight I am at 173 which is so far means I have not made my goal at least to be 20lbs lighter before cruise and I doubt I will lose it in 10 days. But even so I will say this I am very proud to even lose 10 and if I can just maybe drop a few extra pounds like say 3 I would still be very happy. I have worked very hard and I can see a huge difference in not just my body but my attitude. and I love every sweat drenching workout and every morning when I wake up I enjoy looking in the mirror looking for the changes.

So next topic....
MAX WORKOUTS
Not including today I have 3 workouts till I start phase 2 which is Max interval and Max plyo and max cardio conditioning.
I am so scared I wont lie day 1 I remember being like Tony you Fucker You lied After doing plyometric x for 160 days I thought I was getting in shape hell no!!!
I remember doing the first workout for insanity and feeling like I was going to die and realize that I was not in shape not even close until I can jump up and down with shaun and That group you are no where in shape. My lungs were not as strong I feel like my heart has even got stronger too does that even make since. I have been building serious endurance I also now can do plyo x like its a cake walk!
So I watched last night max plyo and I think I am going to die again it looks so freaking hard it is not funny some of the new moves and I almost cant imagine my heart being at 90% for 41 mins out of 55. and at the same time I am super excited. well I hope everyone has a great day! I am about to go do some work and then work out.
I hope this pushes you to push play I haven't made my goal yet and I still and super syked and cant wait to keep going see day 60!!!

Day 31: Cant Nobody slow me down oh no I got to keep on Moving!

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I hope everyone has had a great weekend. Yes it is Sunday! The high is 81 it is amazing outside and after doing more this weekend then normal exploring Nashville, going to the different malls, checking out the restaurants and talking a stroll down Broadway and see opryland. I wish I could say I was out partyin and all but I wasn't.
but so I didn't eat well No lie between loveless biscuits which are around here famous. its been a tourist attraction for over 50 years here in Nashville. So lets see after eating that stuff though we had to walk through green hills walk off the good bacon and eggs and biscuits that we stuffed in our face and lets see after that we kinda just chilled I mean we did wait over a hour to eat breakfast and by the time we got done it was like 2 so I think we got home from green hills around 5pm. and so we got lazy but doesn't stop me I push myself and well we go back out and decide to go grocery shopping for me to make dinner and so I make a mean salad it was awesome along with baked chicken fresh garden beans that had olive oil and garlic and some wild rice yum yum! I let it digest and leave it at that after about a hour and half go by I tell me friend to sit back and relax I need 40 mins to dedicate to a man who is not trying to hurt me but make me better and I do some plyo btw this is just my Friday! Lol so I get through it thank god and Trust me I felt like I was about to die. I felt on that night a cold starting to come my sister was sick this past week and I wanted to kill her I felt it. Well here it becomes Saturday. Yay another day to explore well first off another day of un healhty eating we start off with breakfast at shoneys yea I KNOW not even close to Healthy but I did eat eggs bacon a biscuit and fruit no sweet junk. I did ok and I am so proud of myself it has been over 90 days since I had coke cola or any soda! well I really didn't have a snack or anything cause I wasn't hungry all day between resting and then heading to cool springs galleria mall we hung out . Love Relaxing but if I would have know what I was going to have dinner I would have worked out instead of laying around. But anyways we go to mall shop I get a lovely little massage which was so nice my back then tension I felt so good after and then My weakness he said Carrabas for dinner and oh no I lose it the temptation wins their bread the herbs the luna carraba if you haven't worked there you might not know what that is but if you have worked there its a mix or the messaluna and the pasta carrabas the chicken breast peas mushrooms and ravioli omg well lets just say after dinner I was motivated to workout No Matter What!! I probably ate 1000 calories easy. easy
so I get home and again the torture of watching me workout no one joins in. But I don't give what what I want a nice body so I bust a move with pure cardio. Yea no lie I cant believe with company in town again I have managed to push my self I have not let no one slow me down unless it was myself. so no way to be upset or have any excuse or no one to blame but myself if I don't get the results I want.
So Anyways After all that I wont lie its been up and down the weather here in Nashville so I am of course getting sick which thank god I am at least getting sick 2 weeks before my cruise instead of my cruise. haha beat that mother nature I am not going to have a head cold in paradise damn it lol. well pretty much other then read this book that is going to help change my life.




I am going to rest and enjoy my Sunday. have a great day yall!!

Day 29: Busy Busy Now its the weekend

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Well its Friday and I am just again falling behind I had this down where I was writing it on the day it was for. Now I am a day late it seems and have been for awhile. So this is for Yesterday Thursday the 14th. Well it started off good. Kinda sucked though lilly was sick I am praying she doesn't get me sick I am still trying to be strong lol. So anyways I wake up make some coffee take my pill its about 8am had trouble sleeping wed night. So once again I am being so bad to my body I may drink a coffee and bottle of water but as far as food. NOTHING! I am so bad about eating it is so hard for me. I guess the life of a writer your more worried about pleasing everyone and coming up with something that is the next big thing I cant stop thinking about it. I have been writing a lot and I think that is why I am having a hard time sleeping as well trying to make it is the hardest thing I feel like the weight of the world on my shoulders, I seem to eat breath sleep and feel that I have a number 1 in me it needs to come out. I am also trying to force my body to hurry up I want to be able to look the way a public figure should. I DON'T EVER EXPECT to be a stick thin girl I AM NOT A SUPERMODEL I AM A SINGER SONGWRITER LOL.
But I still have to love myself enough to be able to wear things. My best friend asked me the other day Melissa what happen to music video you were making???
I wanted to cry when I had to not say how I really felt but that I got to fat to make a video I was embarrassed that being alone and told no no no from record labels and producers and vp and writers telling me Sorry not there yet. and losing my number one fan to cancer because the VA thought a cancer test was just a bit expensive errrrrr. I anyways start thinking again I have to eat I am not going to lose if I burn burn burn calories and not add any fuel or help my body take good things in to create energy and burn fat.
So I still screw up after all that I go in the kitchen and just make a shakeology shake its is like 11am I drink that nasty shit and keep writing. yes I say nasty ewww it taste like apples cinnamint and ass uh. but I again my method hold my breath chug it like a beer bong lol and it is so nasty. but then I get my energy in then I take off and go run my errands for the day and do some work
So lets see I get home its afternoon I had to have my landlord come over fix some shit lol I hate that about having a private landlord but hey it life what can you do I guess in a way its better then owning right now and something breaking and not having enough to fix it or worst spending my music money on a water heater or something crazy like that. So waste time listening to him and then After I had to get motivated I had company coming into town this weekend so I had to hurry up get some food in and get ready to work out so I did just that.
3:50 Eat tuna and double fiber bread and kettle cook chips I am pretty plain and eat a lot of things over and over and over. so you know the deal let it digest and then talk to lilly I get unmotivated dwhen she gets home so we start talking and hanging out and watching tv. and again nothing until I get the text on the way I was like crap time to workout and some how I was already hungry again shit. I dont even care I motivate and press play instead of cardio recovery I do the cardio restiance again I need the most calories burn I almost want to skip the r4ecovery week or find a way to shorten I am not making it I have 16 days and not enough time. I really need to bust butt I have decided I am going to take the program with me and if I have to I will work out a min of 3 out of 7 days. That's not unfair to myself. I will also have the max ones it will be my second week. who knows maybe I can find some cruisers to do it with me haha. I was thinking go to the gym say 7 in the morning no one is in the Arabic's area play it on the lap top and see who follows. I am a leader if you don't know me I am I work hard for what I want. If I want something I get it. That's me. So It like 8 15 I am finally done with working out and I go shower and get ready I know I should have ate something but I didn't. here it2 1/2 laters I am finally getting to eat and when I do it was not healthy it was stuffed crust pizza oh no!
Granted it did taste amazing I shouldn't have had that and worst no veggies nothing shit just carbs and lots of it I try to take it easy have 2 small pieces but I still felt guilty.
Other then that hung out for a bit drank some water which I also failed on I did not even get close to a gallon I was off by like maybe 3 water bottles which is 16.5x3.
see not good.
Well I hope I do better today but will be hard with company here but am going to try. I hope everyone has a awesome and blessed day.